love revolves around. # 5.

#5.

After 2 years,

Time flew away in front of their eyes like lightening in the sky. Though the cravings of having each other at their side was still a dream for both of them. A dream which has all the possibilities in the world of not coming true.

Udita, (after two years) - silent girl, eyes coupled with dark circles, her charming look had lost its beauty, in the absence of the person who used to praise them.

Pale lips, which used to be red once, perhaps she lost the person who used to blossom them every day.

 This situation was deliberately created by her, for she dared to imagine her life without Aryan. Though the first few months were joyful but soon everything turned against her. 

She started missing him, when at a time she believed she could live her life without him.

She tried to contact him, but to her luck Aryan had cut off every single thread between them.

20th Oct, 2004.

Udita in one of her attempts to recontact Aryan…..

It has been 2 years since I had heard your voice. The last time you came to meet me, I just walked away sensing your presence. I now realize how important you were in my life, but I guess it’s too late now.

It's not that I have not made a move on, I did, many-a-times. But I failed miserably and got back where I had started. There are so many boys out there, then why do I always keep thinking about you every time. Why do I see your face flashing on every other guy, why?

You had just asked one thing from me "be on my side”, rest I would take care of. But I never did value your feelings.

I am living here like hell; all these days are proving so difficult for me. Winter has arrived and with it came the memories of yours; it was the time when you first came in my house...20th Dec…., 

Ah, what’s the use of remembering all those days when they are no more? But I can't forget you, I just can’t.

Please come back jannu.

With this she pressed the 'send' bottom,

<The mail was not delivered> came the prompt.

She felt a sudden rush of adrenaline in her, tears kept flowing from the eyes as they turned red...  And she prepared herself for the haunting night ahead.....

"Wherever you go, whatever you do, you know I love you...from my heart , I really do. I will be waiting, always. Whatever it takes, whatever's at stake, you know I'll be right here, right here ... 'always waiting for you'.  "

She repeated these lines in her mind as she dropped in sleep.

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love revolves around. # 4.

# 4.

Away from the cries and sorrow of his world, Udita was on a much propitious ride.

"Finally life has been worth living, thanks god." was her facebook status, after she parted herself away from the person whom she called her love, 9 months ago.

"Words hardly matter and people tend to change in span of days. I had had enough of sorrows and just can't afford more. Life is a book of chapters, as we move forward one need to close the previous, not to be opened again" she reflected these words to herself, as the plane took off from Netaji Subhas Chandra Bose International airport.

Life has been generous to her, new college, new friends, no promises to be kept, no relation to be handled. She desperately wanted to make this come off and deliberately discarded a series of attempts to change the decision.

Nothing matters to me you know,

I am very well happy without you

That’s for sure.

His pleadings were incorrigible for her now."I am fed up of understanding you, no matter what you do now I will forever regret my years with you. It was such an unwise decision to come to you." she conveyed this in a discordant tone ever used by her.

Everything in her life was taking shape like never before and she welcomed every joy with open arms. Relations were the last thing she wanted in her life now. She had changed from top to bottom; her eyes spoke so much, hair much longer with slightest tinge of brownish color to it. 

A look on which she was proud of and to this she got a fair bit of attention among the male species.

                   

On the other side Aryan was in pain, every attempt to bring his life back on track was proving to be futile. 

Slowly but surely, he was on the verge of losing a hard fought battle. He had decided whatever happens to him now he would never let that girl know. 

For that he disconnected himself from every possible common source.

Because of their ego, their love got hanged in between for which one was suffering and for other one?? Let’s say the days were about to start...

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love revolves around. # 3.

#3.

  

                         It was hard on his part to tackle all this alone; neither could he pour his pain out to any close one. He did everything which could give him relief, from this ugly curse. He did switch places, from one friend to another. But they help was futile as well.

In my memories you seem so near,

But when I open my eyes why do you always disappear?

The wind kept brushing away his face; it was getting difficult for him to keep his eyes open. The bus was traveling way too fast but he looked lost in his own world....

“I just need you now...." the song expressed his present state, though it didn't matter as the person concerned was not listening to any of the two.

Traveling in buses brought back memories, memories which were enough to made him go mad in the past four months, memories with which he had been fighting with all his strength but kept loosing it every single time. Memories, which made him smile a few months ago, were now nothing short of torture.

His meandering thoughts at that point of time, took him back into past and into a life he had tried hard to forget...

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“Where are you?” she enquired.

"Hmm. Just 5 minutes more I will be there." I replied.

"O.K, I just called to say that I have a surprise for you."

“Surprise?? What is it? “This statement came as a surprise itself,

"Oho, just wait for few minutes, you will see.”

“Fine." I ended the call.

As I walked few paces ahead I saw her, with her hair open she looked absolutely fabulous and this was the surprise for me.

"So, how do I look??”

"As beautiful as ever, dear"

We smiled sheepishly looking at each other; she had planned to wear same colored clothes for our date, today. A ploy according to which she thought we would look perfect.

As we entered the premises of a restaurant, there was a corner just beside the stairs, faded with a small light.

I held her hand, pulled her close to me, piercing into each other eyes our bodies became tense with anticipation as she released the gears and planted her lips on mine.

We kissed and kissed, each time experiencing various depth, thrust and intensity. Our bodies became hot craving for more....soon our hands started feeling each other, leaving no place left to be touched, she grabbed mine and directed to her cleavage and left it there...

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He woke up with the splash of rain at his face, breaking up the thoughts.

"Where did the rain come from?? It was almost sunny few minutes ago. Weather in this part of India is surely unpredictable.”Moved by the images he saw in his mind, all he felt was helplessness.

"How do I get over you dear, how??You said everything would be fine in a matter of months, it has not been the case."

Trying to get over you,

I failed in my attempt.

Deep in my heart,

I remember you with each passing scent.

Listen to me, listen to me for once

What I want to say,

You are my life; please don't leave me alone this way.

He had tried every possible way to get over his love but all he got was more and more pain.

I wish I could tell you how I felt,

when you moved over me.

You said it gave you happiness,

but you didn’t realize

you were blaming my love instead.

I wish I could make you believe,

for all that I did was pure.

Our relation did have a start

but why didn’t it last longer.?

I wish I could tell,

how I dreamt of you night and

    losing you, is not what I wanted.                                            

 But I had to accept all these,

as my wish was not granted.

You said there’s more to life than me,                               

 I wish I could tell you

there are only vacant spaces in my life,

without you...

The bus halted and he came down, all lost to himself he went to the lake surrounding his home, sat on a small elevated wall nearby,

"I love you Udita.” he uttered in his mind as he looked across the water body and closed his eyes which were already filled with tears....

love revolves around. # 2.

Aryan and Udita were in love with each other, Love as seen in plays, as pure and intense as it ever could be. Both of them wanted to get married one day, nothing could ever stop them from loving each other.

But fate had something else planned for them. What made them drift apart? Will the love between them survive? Will they ever meet again? Or just would move on in their lives?

Witness their love blossom into a flower and then fade away like crushed leaves.

#2.

It has been long since we talked and the last words which I heard from you were “I am going from here”, there I stood lost, weak, so fearful that I could not even move my feet to stop you and neither did you bother to turn around.

Your words echoed in my ears “you are such a selfish person, I should have listen to my parents, it’s a huge mistake of mine and I regret every moment spend with you in those 4 years."

I waited and I waited some more time but you didn't made any response, back then I made a pledge to myself, of forgetting you forever and letting you out in those puffs of smoke.

 It pained, I cried and I cried some more all I got was only one answer "you cannot forget her, you are not strong enough”

In the quest to keep myself away from your memories, away from your fragrance, I switched places, ran out with bad company. 

Little to my knowledge my efforts went fruitless. More so, I realized the bitter truth of my life “you are gone, like forever from my life."

You decided to walk away,

Without caring for what I wanted.

You took a step ahead,

And left me there spell bounded.

All my pleading gone in vain,

But it never tickled

A nerve in your brain....

The crashing of my heart

Didn’t make a sound...

And you didn't bother to turn around.

Time did pass away,

Even when it seemed impossible,

I am losing you with each passing day.

Despite all your rude temper,

I am standing here...

Waiting for your return.

But does it really matters to anyone.

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love revolves around. # 1.

Aryan and Udita were in love with each other, Love as seen in plays, as pure and intense as it ever could be.Both of them wanted to get married one day, nothing could ever stop them from loving each other.

But fate had something else planned for them. What made them drift apart ?

 Will the love between them survive? 

will they ever meet again? Or just would move on in their lives ?

Witness their love blossom into a flower and then fade away like crushed leaves......

# 1.

Looking at the previous pictures which showed the two of them being together, he felt a sudden pain in his chest.

"Is it because of the cigarettes I had burned in the last hour or the fact that I am remembering her more and more.? “.

 It was a stupid question he asked to himself.

This day today, was supposed to be his birthday and for the 2nd time in his life he was crying on this day. 

He knew it very well that she will never contact him, no matter what the circumstances are. But his heart refused to accept this fact, in the end he had to pay for it, heavily.

 Past 6 months had been the worst for him and even today nothing has changed, as a matter of fact it only got worsened.

He sat on his bed to minimize the pain he was suffering, waited for sometime then reopened his mailbox. Much to his disappointment nothing had changed in the past half an hour. He got up from the chair, opened the window to grasp in some fresh air. It was still quite dark outside.

 He felt an urge to leave the place.

 Out on the streets he kept on walking till he reached the park. He jumped across the boundary wall to the bridge, this was the place which saw their friendship turn into love, His legs trembled there and leaning over the sidebars for support he kept staring at the water for no good reason....

Soon the Sun peeped out of the clouds, which made the place more enchanting, the birds started their chatter, a ray of light fell on him and he opened his eyes to notice the surrounding.

"Nothing has changed here, everything remains the same as it used to be,” he murmured to himself.

His phone kept buzzing with calls from all his friends and relatives, but not the one that mattered. The thought of jumping into the water brushed his mind for once, but he loved her far too much to let go this easy. Giving up would mean the end of his love, and he didn't want that.

He somehow controlled his emotions and with heavy legs walked back, there’s nothing he could have done now.

" I have to live my life this way,” he murmured looking up the sky...

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